Hopes and dreams

Birds are chirping. It’s almost the middle of June and the weather is starting to understand her assignment. Kind of. As the year keeps going, things in my life and the rest of the world do not really end up jiving well with each other.

I rarely look at news outlets not for lack of caring but for the sake of keeping my own sanity and cheerful demeanor up. If I were to continuously take in the news, I believe a lot of people would find me depressed. And depressed is something I would rather not be. I have been down that deep dark pit of despair one too many times in my lifetime already. Somehow though, we still need to be informed of what is happening in the world.

Across my social media accounts I follow people from all over the world because, well, why not? It’s good to know how the lives of others are lived, their culture and what similarities and differences there are. How they prepare meals and food, to learning how one dances and what music is vibing in that location. I look at it as viewing and learning from all cultures and people.

However, there are times when I come across eye-opening and heartbreaking events and happenings. They make my heart hurt. Sometimes it hurts just by the fact that we as a human race, still are harboring hate within ourselves for others who are ‘different;’ whether that be race, religion, immigration status, external country division and the list continues. Why do so many of us carry hate?

Recently, I have started to reread an incredible book. One that truly gets you to look at yourself, or as true as you let yourself, The Inner Work: An Invitation to True Freedom and Lasting Happiness. In my opinion, this book is extremely helpful in diving deep to understand uncharted depths of your own subconscious mind. To not only help understand, but have a different outlook of your shadows that we all keep hidden away, out of fear, guilt, self-hatred, etc. That usually leads to sending that hate externally to others.

When I find myself too much in my head thinking of something that I have no control over, and where it is also showing in my feelings as a deep pang of pain, I turn to this book to help realign my headspace and sometimes my heart. To help deconstruct the inner thoughts and feelings. To understand if they come from an old wound or trauma, which generally they do, or from a lack of self-worthiness.

This book gives you the space to do it in a way that isn’t going to cause more pain and suffering, unless you aren’t open to it. If your ego is too big and it throws out the notion of “nothing is going to help,” well then there is a lot more to your journey in learning self-love and love for others. Maybe all should find their own version of this book and read it. Read it and truly get the benefits out of it to transition into the complete being you are. One that is made out of love and not hate.

I can dream, right? I find myself dreaming of a lot these days. Here is to hoping my dreams come true.

SEEKING

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SAMANTHA Y OCIUS CREATIVE MEDIA